The Earth is Yours

This song reminds me that I am not the center of anything and I am thankful. This song makes me want to dance. This song makes me hopeful for heaven.

Beautiful

As I was in my car the other day this song began to play and as I let the words wash over my anxious and overwhelmed heart I felt a calming reassurance that these standards that we deem as success in this life are not from God. So often I desire to be this person that I have created in my mind; the one who has no regrets, a soft response to everyone, a perfect quiet time record and patience without limits. I measure my success as a child of God in my ability to attain certain goals I see as valuable rather than acknowledging that God sees me as his daughter created for a purpose and I doubt that purpose is me comparing myself to the perfect Christian girl my mind has created. I have recently been thinking about the heart in which I desire to pursue God, so often I feel it is out of a quest to go through the assumed motions rather than a pursuit of relationship. I want to pursue God out of a heart that longs to know more deeply the one who sees me as beautiful and who jealously desires to be in relationship with me. 

He sees the beauty in my heart that has more hopes than I dare dream, my mind that has thoughts more vast than my ability to communicate them and the beauty in the reflection of my mirror. He created my passionate desire for relationships with others yet I’ve so frequently chosen to share that with everyone but him. Sometimes I think I just need the reminder that in His eyes I am beautiful and that He desires me to see it as well. In allowing my doubts, fears and regrets to hinder my relationship with Him the only thing I am really communicating is that His work on the cross wasn’t good enough.  

I want to set out to see myself as God sees me and recognize that He values things the world does not. I want to pursue a relationship built on crazy love not crazy expectations. I want my relationship with Jesus to be something that causes others to stop and desire what they see. I want to remember that He has taken all of the steps but the last toward me, I only have to take the final one...